Page 1 Page 2 Page 3 Page 4 Page 5 Page 6 Page 7 Page 8 Page 9 Page 10 Page 11 Page 12 Page 13 Page 14 Page 15 Page 16 Page 17 Page 18 Page 19 Page 20 Page 21 Page 22 Page 23 Page 24 Page 25 Page 26 Page 27 Page 28 Page 29 Page 30 Page 31 Page 32 Page 33 Page 34 Page 35 Page 36 Page 37 Page 38 Page 39 Page 40 Page 41 Page 42 Page 43 Page 44 Page 45 Page 46 Page 47 Page 48 Page 49 Page 50 Page 51 Page 52 Page 53 Page 54 Page 55 Page 56 Page 57 Page 58 Page 59 Page 60 Page 61 Page 62 Page 63 Page 64 Page 65 Page 66 Page 67 Page 68 Page 69 Page 70 Page 71 Page 72 Page 73 Page 74 Page 75 Page 76 Page 77 Page 78 Page 79 Page 80 Page 81 Page 82 Page 83 Page 84Plough Quarterly • Winter 2017 49 “I let go all of the hurt and decided to do something for others instead of me.” Yanina Calderone was born in Guatemala City. She moved to New York City at age fourteen to live with her father. Yanina was raped at age fifteen and became pregnant. She decided to keep her child. Rather than let a violent act ruin her life, she chose to funnel all of her love toward her child. When Yanina left an abusive husband, she made ends meet by selling drugs, got addicted to heroin, and joined a street gang. Today she participates in Alternatives to Violence Project, a program that teaches nonviolent conflict resolution. There was this lady who was going through domestic violence. I knew it, but I didn’t ever say anything until that day I saw her crying. I talked to her. I said, “Are you afraid of him? Don’t be. That’s how they get you.” She asked for help. I’m like, “I helped somebody. I can do this more often.” I have so many experi- ences in my life: addict, victim of domestic violence, rape victim. I can talk about it now. For seventeen, eighteen years, I never told nobody that I was raped. I never told no one that I had a son from rape. I don’t regret what I have done in life because it allows me to help others. If I can stop you, I stop you.  ■